hehe~~ now the time is 11.13pm~~~ still left few minutes and my birthday going to end ady!!!
Really thanks a lot for all my lovely friends and family who celebrate with me and i really have a blast birthday!! Although is a bit tired...but i feel happy that you are still remember my birthday...n celebrate for me~~
This year birthday ...i have a lot of surprise from all of you...that make me feel touching and the tears are keep flowing in my heart!! and i receive a lot of wishes that is unexpected and make me feel super duper happy!!
thanks ya!!!
Well...finally ....i'm 23 years old ady~~ this year 23rd of October i celebrate my 23rd years old...huh~~ getting older liao~~..have to be more mature..cannot like small kid anymore!!! hehe~~ i will gambateh de!!!
Actually, i juz dropping here to write my blog so that i have a birthday blog on todays date.. n i wish myself~~~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!
Haha~~ come back to English version!!
Ya~~ today is 20/10/2010..Another Special Date!! Hoho~~ so...must write a post on my blog in this special date! keke~~
Hmm~~ today also a special day for me..coz i'm gonna celebrate my birthday with my family~~ exciting!!! Really thanks them a lot for celebrating my birthday by doing my favorite activity which is "Cheong K"!! haha~~
Hehe~~ Need to thanks them in advance 1st..Coz all r not very rich..but still they willing to purposely save money for my birthday especially my brother " Ah Boon" Haha~~~ thanks!!! N also thanks my second sister "Pei Yin Jie" haha~~ give me a shirt as my birthday present (although there r some reason inside) ..but still thanks for it!! Pei yin Jie also baked my favorite cheese tart for me..as i dream also want to eat de ^o^v...N also thanks Yin Jie call n book the K-room for my celebration!! Woohooo~~ N also thanks Peggy Soo for joining my birthday celebration!!!
Haha~~ quite look forward for my night today~~ but there r some ppl that make me feel miserable on this morning~~ "ohh..very happy ahh"" wat is that?? is this a sarcastic comment or really is happy for me?? I'm juz wishing all my friends and family have a happy day on 2010/2010..wat wrong on it? does it mean i'm happy too.. Until now still dun understand that i'm a kind of person that when i see ppl happy i will happy too?? Haiz..Watever la.. Maybe is i think too much!! =.="" haha~~ if ppl really wish me happy n i think this way is really hurt that ppl~~ hehe~~ so bad la me!! ishh!!!
Hmmm...is this special day..really need to tell myself that ~~
"Adeline, u must gambateh ahh! Is going to year end dy...wat u plan to do, wat u wish to do, wat u want to do, have all of it done yet?? If not, must be fast ahh!! Huh~~ dun like 烂泥 (slush) anymore !! Stand Up n go forward!!! God will always be with u de!!! Must be strong!!! Gambateh!!! "
huh~~ there are few ppl that i really need to thanks them de!!! Sumore is need to thanks them in the rest of my life!!! Especially My Pastor (Pastor Desmond) Lily n Leng Jie~~ Becoz of them i can stand until now!! Because of them my life never be dark anymore!!! Thanks for the support till now!!! Thanks for the caring till now!!! Thanks for the encouragement till now!!! Thanks!! muackzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!! haha~~ (y i so "gam xing" today ahh!!) N of coz~~ thanks my family members that willing to accept me as one of them!!! thanks!!!! muackzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!! n the most important de!!! Is my God!! Praise the Lord that i can be the daughter of the God!! thanks!!!
Finally ...finally...n finally....Happy 2010/2010!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 万岁!!!! hohoho!!!
哈哈! 9月20号!!! 开学啦!!!
哎!!!! 终于进入第三年了~~ 最后一年了.真的好想好想把时间倒流回去哦!! 好舍不得这个读书的生活,很快的就要结束这样的生活了,有千千万万个不愿...哈哈! 现在的生活可说是享受.. 有时想偷懒就可以不去学校, 可以睡觉~~ 做工就不一样了!!! 每天都要早早起身, 而且做工时间又长~~ 想到都觉得懒惰~ 哈哈!!!
虽然很懒惰做工, 可是我的梦想可不小哦! 哈~~ 我会告诉我自己努力的读书,以后可以在一间好的公司上班~~ 例如银行!! 哈哈!! 不错吧!!??? 虽然不想结束大学的生活,可是读书是最穷的时刻, 所以再怎么不想还是要面对事实..... 得快快出来工作..赚很多很多的钱!!!! 哈哈!!! 什么嘛??!! 嘻嘻~~ 因为答应了某人, 要带她去 DisneyLand!!! 呵呵!!
已经开学了一个月了,可是好像没有真实的投入读书~~可是今天终于有这样的感觉, 真的读书了啦!!!! 哈哈!! 前所未有的认真啊! 还是这样的感觉比较对!!! 是有点辛苦, 得早早去学校, 可是还是觉得这样比较好, 因为这样才像读书嘛!! 嘻嘻!!
接下来的时刻~~ 就真的要加油了!!!完全交托给主~~让他来带领我的前途~~~
haha~~ like the direct translation on the title!! kekeke~~~
Hmmm...think off this time use mandarin to write this blog~~
已经好久没有写部落了~~这也证明了我好久没有整理我的心情了! 对我来说写部落是整理心情的工作! 哈哈! 因为我可以把所有的心情都写出来! 我应该一个月没写部落了, 其实在这段日子里 ... 经历了好多好多~ 多到我不知如何表达出来, 因为实在太复杂了,所以才命标题为"酸甜苦辣"...
在这段日子里~ 发生最大件的事...就是分手! 终于做了这个决定~~撑了有好一阵子, 终于在开学的第二天"告诉" 他了~~ 没算什么告诉吧..因为我是用邮件告诉他的! 我有想过要找他谈谈的~~可是知道他会生气~~ 知道他会在一时间接受不了~~ 知道就算谈,也不会有答案~~ 我在这一生中, 最怕的莫过于看到别人在生气~~ 我也不知道为什么...所以决定用邮件告诉他. 可是看到了他的回复知道他很生气, 心里还是怕的要死! 我相信这是他最不了解我的地方吧!
其实分手的主要原因就是"性格不合"...有一些人会觉得这个理由很敷衍,可是对我来说, 这个真的是我们这段感情的致命伤! 在很多件事上, 我和他的想法, 看法, 观点 都不一样! 有些事对他来说是不重要,但对我来说就意义重大! 有时真的是令我非常生气也非常讨厌他这样的性格! (不是有意中伤他人, 只是没一个人的观点都不一样,而这是我无法接受的!) 日子长久以来, 这些不满使我无法再和他相处, 压力也越来越大, 即使再怎么喜欢, 也无法继续.
或许是对之前的事影响吧, 觉得他真的好像好像那个人! 性格上可说是90% 相似...好不容易才从那儿逃了出来, 真的几千几百万个不想在到回去以前的生活..很讨厌我以前的生活, 简直是恨之入骨!! 所以我真的已经不想再谈谈之间的问题, 然后在做决定要不要分手! 在那一刻, 我真的不想再见到他, 就连通电话也不想! 因为看到他如同看到那个人! 我真的不想在去回想...想起我会怕..想到我会很想哭.. 想到我会很讨厌..我不知道讨厌什么, 不过就是讨厌! 我想信, 很认识我的朋友会说我还没走出来吧! 我不知道答案~~ 你们会帮我找出答案吗?
第二个分手的原因就是.... 在一起的那段时间里..我觉得我自己好像距离我的神好远好远... 记得曾经有人说过, 当你做了莫个决定, 而你又不敢向别人分享神的恩典, 那就是很有可能做错了决定~ 就是觉得有问题所以自己心中都有了犹豫..而不敢向别人分享, 其实我一直都不敢向教会里的人分享, 还有一些我的朋友~ 我也不知道为什么...或许我的朋友们会比我清楚吧! 对吗?
在说了分手的那时候, 我觉得我整个人都松了下来, 感觉上我又好像回到了我的神的身边...回到了神的保护之下~~ 为什么我会有这样的感觉呢?
感情付出就已经是付出了, 分手后,就会开开心心吗? 就可以当什么都没发生过吗? 不可能! 不能! 因为在怎么说还是喜欢...只是之间的性格真的相差太远了~~ 想念? 那是当然的! 可是我一定要站稳我的立场! 一定要加油! 我不可以倒下! 我相信他会找到一个比我更好的! 祝他幸福快乐! 我现在是真的有一点痛苦~~可是我会努力生活的! 加油! 加油! 加油! Aza aza fighting!!!!!
靠着神的能力我凡事都能做!!!!!! Amen!!!
